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Cibertus
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Date Joined Jul 2001
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| Posted 10/8/2001 7:37 PM (GMT -6) |   | I think this would fit under the Tearing down walls heading, even though it does not fit the description. It IS about walls coming down.
Sometimes life is all the same old sick crap. People are dying without Jesus here there and everywhere. People in bondage—tied down with a demon(s) and nobody seems to be able to help them out. You see him/her struggle against a force so large they are rendered helpless in the hands of it. People sinning and doing things they shouldn’t be doing everywhere you look. Then there’s yourself—always fighting the demon. Sometimes you overcome, sometimes you don’t. Too often you don’t. Even once is too often. And I’m not just making all this up. I look into these kind a people’s eyes and feel the power of evil behind the garbage. I feel the power of it working on me. You begin to wonder—where’s God. Oh he’s here you snap at yourself. but then that poor demon posessed kid. Didn’t Jesus die so that those bound could be free? WHERE THE HECK IS God? Some of you may wonder who this down talker, jab atcha, pesimistic, rock throwin Cibertus is. Especially when my negative side comes out on here. Believe it or not, I used to be known as the kid with the smile plastered all over my face. Some would even call me sweet spirited.
Truth is sometimes especially in the most recent years, I feel like that cartoon character that walks around with the raincloud over his head and he takes his little puddle of rain with him wherever he goes. (somehow I think it’s a Peanuts character—not sure though. Why would I be reading the funnies when I wanna sit in my downer misery  )
But then two Sundays ago I’m going about my business when I had to stop because something felt different. It was as though God’s love was all around me beaming into me. I was aware of his greatness. His creator status. The vastness and intricacy of him all at once. And he loves me. He loves ME??!!! it was weird and good and then exhilarating. Somehow it no longer matters that someone’s making me look like an idiot in front of my boss. Maybe I’ll just play along and have fun with it. Somehow it doesn’t destroy me when I see someone make a destructive choice. Maybe tomorrow God will beam his love on them. It doesn’t matter that someone just gave you the bird and cut you off. I can just laugh. I feel kinder. More at ease. Someone just lifted the weight of the world off my shoulders. I don't have to figure it all out. I don't have to take the world's problems upon myself. God’s love really does change a whole lot of things!
Any one else have a REAL and changing moment?
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