You see how useless they are now.

Feel the existential anxiety bearing upon you.

 

Do you hear it, roaring toward you?

Rushing over you. Like a waterfall.

Filling you with dread, emptiness and pangs of despair.

Threatening to consume all that you are.

Now, in the midst of all this, close your eyes...acknowledge yourself. Acknowledge THAT you are.

Breathe deeply. Contemplate the breath.

Now ask yourself "WHO contemplated that breath"

You did.

In the midst of the nothingness, you thought about your thoughts.

You really are.

You really exist.

Know this beyond doubt. You exist.

But you exist IN something.

You didn't bring YOURSELF into existence.

You didn't bring this universe into existence.

Face it. You exist in something.

What is that Something?

In what do you exist?

In what do you live, move and have existence?

Could it be the Ground of All Being?

The Source of all Love?

The Gracious Spring of All Life?

The One whom cannot be served with human hands?

Yeah...just maybe.

In the cold darkness and impending madness...realize that you are GROUNDED in something.

Something real.

Something unshifting, yet dynamic.

Something far, but closer than your own soul.

Do you feel it?

Can you sense that something?

Can you?

Good.

Now...

Rest in that Something.

Rest in the GRACE that something provides you.

Ah, yes. GRACE.

Ground yourself afresh in that grace that pours over you.

Now, contemplate Jesus.

Jesus...the Incarnation of the Source of All Grace.

Really contemplate Jesus being the human face of this foundational Reality.

Do you hear something?

Do you recall some words?

A phrase you used to remember from a long time ago...

"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a person remains in me and I in them, that one will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing."

Who said that?

Jesus.

Then you remember.

It hits you like a cold, brisk breeze.

This was never about seeking meaning for you life.

This was never about getting blessed by some Deity.

This was never about impacting Ultimate Reality.

This was never about finding a surrogate parent for yourself.

No...none of those things.

This was about abiding in freely given, loving grace.

This was about reflecting Glory and Power not your own.

This was about being swept up into Something greater than yourself.

This was about enduring your own DEATH and letting go...to find true LIFE.

Ah, yes. This is what is was all about!

FREEDOM.

REST.

UNITY.

SURRENDER.

SURRENDER.

SURRENDER.

Observe what you are feeling.

Live in this feeling.

Live in this memory.

Live in this every moment of your life from this point forward.

Don't let the Matrix of actively seeking life recapture you.

Don't let the trap of "finding yourself" rebind you.

Don't let the maze of hectic, frantic living mire you again.

Let it all go.

All of it.

Die.

Lose yourself...

and find yourself in God.

That's where LIFE is.

That's where it's always been.

Now...

Go live life.

Unafraid.

Unashamed.

Unleashed.

BE!

Post Edited (MephEternal) : 10/17/2005 7:30:47 PM (GMT-5)